We are in a Love game and fighting with ourselves.

I had a go on the Pof dating site, is it me or do I suck at these things?

Maybe it is a Love game. To see if we can improve contingencies to better ourselves from the "I ain't good enough to function as a person". But if guys could read minds, we would know if we are winning or losing. We don't so lets focus on what we can.

I have been on at night, using the Pof app, thinking there could be a lady out there who just might, think differently to how I feel. Yet relate somewhere. But I feel most women are out for the outcome lifestyle. The money, the power and the escalating success and influence.

Sure it is attractive, the reality is we as humans can reach a snag and feel like we 'carry ourselves through to the shore with just one armband'.

As I get older, I give myself more and more excuses not to go for something as the reason is too stressful. Sure for things to work, there has to be sweat equity and some resilience. I ain't got that art right and I can be brutally honest to depressive states. When I am high rolling. I am singing Edd Sheeran songs or listening to Carly Rae Jepson's recent lush tune.

The more I rant though, the more I feel I am lonely but the truth is we all are.

The only thing is what I do from here to who excites me to take it to the next level....